A New Beginning

I'm back. I know it's been a while. A bit too long.

The Fall was intensely busy. With moving in to our new house and working full time amid the football season, it was quite overwhelming. But, overall rewarding. We are surviving our first winter in the new house, learning all the quirks and strange noises as the house settles in around us. We are busy planning and dreaming of what we want to work on this spring and summer for the house. My goals are starting a small garden in the backyard, adding a back deck to spend summer nights outside. Hopefully also small landscaping in the front of the house, planting some flowerbeds and maybe staining the front porch a nice oak color.

I've been wanting to work on this blog for a long time, but every time I sit down to write, I stare at a blank screen. What is so important about my life that others would want to read it? That is my problem. I'm not writing for other people, I am writing for myself. So, here I am. I'm going to try to blog at least once a week, about my adventures with my husband in this crazy thing called life.

I've been doing much better since my first post. I still deal with regret on an almost constant basis, but meditating in the morning is helping me overcome past regret and I'm learning to let go. Things that I need to work on are building self-confidence and letting go. My goal this year is to be a happier person, a better wife, and hopefully get a new job. My husband wants to return to school to work on either a Masters of a PhD, so hopefully that will motivate me further to find a new job with better pay so I can contribute more to our family household income.

Teaching still appeals to me, if I could ever get over my stage-fright. I've been looking into teaching online, which I think would fit my personality much better. I would still be teaching, writing lessons, helping students, but wouldn't have to stand in front of 50 people for 3 hours lecturing. We shall see about that job. I can't apply until I've had my Master's for a year, so in April I will be applying.

Well, that is all for now. I just finished my first post of 2012 and I'm feeling really good about it. I actually have things to say for once, and it's nice to let it out. More to come soon!